I talk to my kids while fixing breakfast, making lunches, driving in the car, or completing an email. I talk to my husband while washing dishes or watching TV. I talk to my friends as I run through the halls at church or on the phone while I pick up around the house or start a load of laundry. I talk to God as I sit at stoplights, wait in the carpool line or drive to the next activity (does that make my SUV a sanctuary?)
You get the point…my relationships are experienced on the run. I am seldom fully present in whatever moment I am experiencing…a suburban multi-tasking mom. Aren’t we all proud of all the things we can get done every day? Never a wasted moment? I’m pretty sure though that it isn’t very good for my relationships with those I love most.
So, this year for Lent, I am going to try to slow down. I’m going to try to slow down and really listen to whoever is talking to me, even if it means leaving something else undone. Stop doing what I’m doing, turn off the TV, step away from the computer, leave the phone unanswered and give my full attention where it needs to be at that moment. And, most importantly, that means making time to slow down and talk to God for a few minutes every day while actually sitting still…intentional prayer that includes some time to listen. While I love my running dialogue with God throughout my days, I know that I can’t really hear what He needs to say to me at the deepest level when I am doing something else at the same time. And my spirit suffers when I go too long without that kind of prayer. Lent is a good time to get back on track.
While I have written this entry, I have had two phone conversations and responded to about 5 emails…I don’t think I am going to be very good at this!